detrimental.

I really need to stop drinking.
it's getting out of hand.
it's ridiculous.
























I pee like eight times a day.
baha. you thought.

but that's just me.

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kiddies.

my tom sawyer kids crack me up.
they ask so many questions.
and today they taught me the difference between a trumpet and a coronet.
Kerry was telling them how they shouldn't have stage fright with no audience.
Then he told Gavin to sing.
Gavin asked what to sing and Kerry told him any song he knew the words to.
"Mamma Miaaaaaaa! Here I go agai-aiiiin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Highlight of my day.

"Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you're happy now?

"So you're in Highschool?"
"Yep, I'm a junior."
"Oh.. is that the first year?"
"Oh,not at all I'm almost done with highschool."
"I don't want to go highschool."
"Well why not? I think it's much more fun than sixth grade."
"I'm scared Miss Hannah."
"Why is that?"
"I've seen movies, I don't like how mean everyone is."
"But Gavin, high school is not all like the movies."
"But I saw Mean Girls. Are there mean girls in high school?"
"Well, there are a lot of different types of people in high school. But as long as you have a few good friends, and just try to get along with everyone, you'll be fine."
"I don't know Miss Hannah."



This was probably the most meaningful conversation of my week. It just killed me to hear a tiny 11 year old say this, coupled with the most distraught look on his face. I didn't want to lie to him. I knew I had to tell him the truth, but it was so hard. Letting people down is something I try really hard to avoid, but this wasn't even my own doing. It's just the way everything is. High school is high school by no fault of my own. I think that's the worst part of it all.

obamachange.

I am tired of hearing the phrase "nice guys finish last."
Give it up.
Most guys who say it aren't even the true nice guys.
and honestly?
it works both ways.
"nice girls" finish last as well.
I am not perfect.
It would be delusional to ever even begin to think otherwise.
But I'm a nice enough girl.
but apparently, because I don't put out, I'm not exactly the type of girl most guys around my age like to date.
I get taken advantage of.
and used.
Sounds a whole lot like what these "nice guys" claim to be happening.
Right?

Another thing,
I am tired of being called beautiful by guys who say it because they either;
a. Don't want to use hot or sexy for fear of being thought of us a guy who only likes you for your body. (even though it's the truth)
b. Can't think of a better word.
or..
c. Say it because they think it's what you want to hear.
Beauty is so much more than simple outward appearances.
I just wish some people understood.



All I want is a nice guy.

Miss Hannah.

28 children between the ages of 7 and 12.
Three times a week.
I get to teach them all I know about acting, and how to along with each each other, and how to listen.
Such simple minds.
They warm up to people so easily.
No lack of trust, they think, and they do.
No questions asked.
Small personalities to match their small bodies.
I get to be crazy, and act weird and the coolest thing is;
They think I'm the cat's pajamas.
They compliment me and listen to me and ask me to help them.
Normally, I'd be self-concious, but these kids seriously think everything I do is funny.
It's inspiring.
To be less self-concious.
To be more trusting.
To be a good role model.
To be respectful.
Because now I realize these kids are watching.
and I have a feeling I am going to learn just as much from them, if not more, then they will learn from me.
and besides, they call me Miss Hannah, how adorable is that?

i think this makes me laugh a little too much.

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"Ugh, I hate when people do stuff."
"I know! It's like..... stop that, you know?"